Sunday, June 2, 2013
It's Not Easy Being A Secret Admirer
Pernah nggak suka/kagum sama seseorang yang nggak kamu kenal? Cuma tau, bukan berarti kenal. Temen-temen deket tau dia semua, Mantan pelatih paduan suara di SMA satu band sama dia, di twitter follow dia, dan masih banyak lagi alasan yang somehow bikin duniamu seakan-akan collide sama dia.
Seseorang yang kamu stalking twitternya hampir tiap hari tapi nggak kamu add di path karena takut ketauan. Seseorang yang bikin kamu senyum-senyum sendiri kalo kamu baca twit-twitnya. Seseorang yang suka kamu bayangin gimana rasanya kalo jadi pacarnya.
Tapi kadang mikir, apa jangan-jangan dia itu homo. Soalnya dengan tampang yang rupawan, smart, witty, friendly, pekerjaan yang mapan dan juga admirer yang seabrek on and off twitterland tapi dia nggak punya pacar. Di twitter juga nggak pernah ngomongin masalah gebetan. As long as I notice.
Sampe kadang beranggapan bahwa semesta ini kompakan apa ya ngerjain aku? Soalnya, tiap suka sama orang, semesta ini seakan-akan 'ngeliatin' segala sesuatu yang berhubungan sama orang tersebut. Mulai dari nama, foto, makanan/minuman kesukaan, lagu, film, dan masih banyak lagi.
Orang mungkin bilang kebetulan, tapi kalo udah lebih dari sekali, apa itu namanya masih kebetulan? Soalnya udah beberapa kali kita ngetwit pas di waktu yang sama, jadi pas muncul di TL, twit aku ada diatas twitnya.
Mungkin alasan-alasanku kedengeran cetek & sepele ya. Tapi coba kamu yang jadi aku, terus ngalamin hal yang serupa. Apa nggak kepikiran tuh?
Ada lagi yang bilang, kalo tiba-tiba kamu kepikiran seseorang itu tandanya kalo orang itu duluan yang mikirin tentang kamu. Rumus dari mana ya itu?
Apa beneran ini yang namanya jodoh? Or it's just me?
Is it true that we only see what we want to see?
Oh jodoh, where are you?
Been Away For A While...
Abis dari Malang dan nggak bisa ngeblog karena paket internet handphone abis & kartu iPad mati. Mau minjem laptop males banget.
Berangkat kuliah dengan harapan bisa ketemu sama dospem, tapi begitu nyampe ternyata dosennya nggak ada. Mau nitip contoh proposal buat nanyain masalah judul aja sama mbak bagian keuangan ditolak, disuruh sekalian minggu depan aja. Ternyata dosennya mau nikah Senen besok. Pantes. --"
Terus gimana nasib skripsi? Kapan hari udah sms dosennya, tapi nggak dibales. Apa di kerjain aja dulu, masalah revisi-revisi ntar aja?
Andai bisa lulus tanpa perlu skripsi dan sidang...
Berangkat kuliah dengan harapan bisa ketemu sama dospem, tapi begitu nyampe ternyata dosennya nggak ada. Mau nitip contoh proposal buat nanyain masalah judul aja sama mbak bagian keuangan ditolak, disuruh sekalian minggu depan aja. Ternyata dosennya mau nikah Senen besok. Pantes. --"
Terus gimana nasib skripsi? Kapan hari udah sms dosennya, tapi nggak dibales. Apa di kerjain aja dulu, masalah revisi-revisi ntar aja?
Andai bisa lulus tanpa perlu skripsi dan sidang...
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Why Thesis, WHY!?!
Currently, I've been working on my final thesis.
Now I can feel what my friends been feelings for the last few semester. The stresses, the bored feelings, the sleepless nights, the reduced weights (or in my case the gained weights and I still sleeps at night).
Sekarang sih masih nyampe bab 2, tapi godaannyaaa...
Bener kata anak-anak, kalo ngerjain thesis itu emang harus diselingi sama hiburan. Emang agak lama sedikit, tapi dari pada lempeng ngerjain, terus ditengah-tengah ngerjain dilanda kebosenan akut soalnya dari awal udah terlalu serius ngerjain, kan jadi lebih lama lagi itu ngeluangin waktu buat menghibur dirinya.
Nyari bahan sih sejauh ini belum (dan nggak berharap) ada kendala. Justru yang bermasalah itu dosen pembimbingnya. Kapan hari udah di sms kalo mau ganti judul, tapi sampe sekarang belum dibales juga. --" Jadi, sampe sekarang tetep ngerjain dan masih nyari-nyari bahan, tapi dengan proposal baru yang masih belum disetujui.
Piye iki? :(
Now I can feel what my friends been feelings for the last few semester. The stresses, the bored feelings, the sleepless nights, the reduced weights (or in my case the gained weights and I still sleeps at night).
Sekarang sih masih nyampe bab 2, tapi godaannyaaa...
Bener kata anak-anak, kalo ngerjain thesis itu emang harus diselingi sama hiburan. Emang agak lama sedikit, tapi dari pada lempeng ngerjain, terus ditengah-tengah ngerjain dilanda kebosenan akut soalnya dari awal udah terlalu serius ngerjain, kan jadi lebih lama lagi itu ngeluangin waktu buat menghibur dirinya.
Nyari bahan sih sejauh ini belum (dan nggak berharap) ada kendala. Justru yang bermasalah itu dosen pembimbingnya. Kapan hari udah di sms kalo mau ganti judul, tapi sampe sekarang belum dibales juga. --" Jadi, sampe sekarang tetep ngerjain dan masih nyari-nyari bahan, tapi dengan proposal baru yang masih belum disetujui.
Piye iki? :(
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Love life
It's too cliche. I'm gonna puke.
I dont know why I'm writing about this topic (but i still write it anyway). It's not like my love life is super exciting or what. It sucks. It's really sucks, you'll be yawning while you reading this sentence.
I'm going to be honest. I only have 1 ex so far, and it wasn't a pleasant relationship. There are a few guys who had a crush on me, dont mean to show off, but I dont have any feeling for them.
Since my first breakup, I find it kind of hard to be close and open to another guy. I begin to be a little bit paranoid about it. I think that's why I'm still single until now. I just had this fear that hard for me to explain. So I begin to be comfortable with my status, with my routines, my family, my friends, and my imaginary relationship with those hot actors (okay, I know!).
I used to think that having a boyfriend isnt really an important thing to have. Well, sometimes when my friends telling me stories about their crush or boyfriend, I feel that I need one too. The pressure that comes indirectly from my friends and family to find a boyfriend are the most annoying ones.
I still believe in marriage. I do want to get married someday. Even I dont know when and with who. But me and my mom already agree that we're not going to invite many people on my reception. We think we should keep it simple and intimate. Thats why we'll only invite family and close friends.
Talking about type. Like other girls, I do have my type of guy. I like responsible, smart, good looking, and witty guy. And as my mom said, the most important things when youre looking for a guy are their religion, responsibility, and kindness. Because there are 2 endings in relationship, to be separated and to be married. Thats why we should looking for the best one to spend the rest of our life together.
Dont know why, but I like older guys. I've always had a crush to guys like Marty Natalegawa and Julian Aldrin Pasha. They are smart and good looking, but the most attractive thing for me is that they both looks prestigious. Another crush? Can we count twitter crush as a real crush? Then I had crash with J*seph, F*kri, and Ditt*. Major crush with J*seph. They're witty. They always makes me smile by just reading their tweets. x) But its just a crush.
My mom sometimes says that she'd love to have a bule son in law(I dont really talk about marriage with my dad). Me? I'm okay with both, as long as we love each other and he meet the requirements.
Did I set my standards too high?
*huft*
:/
I dont know why I'm writing about this topic (but i still write it anyway). It's not like my love life is super exciting or what. It sucks. It's really sucks, you'll be yawning while you reading this sentence.
I'm going to be honest. I only have 1 ex so far, and it wasn't a pleasant relationship. There are a few guys who had a crush on me, dont mean to show off, but I dont have any feeling for them.
Since my first breakup, I find it kind of hard to be close and open to another guy. I begin to be a little bit paranoid about it. I think that's why I'm still single until now. I just had this fear that hard for me to explain. So I begin to be comfortable with my status, with my routines, my family, my friends, and my imaginary relationship with those hot actors (okay, I know!).
I used to think that having a boyfriend isnt really an important thing to have. Well, sometimes when my friends telling me stories about their crush or boyfriend, I feel that I need one too. The pressure that comes indirectly from my friends and family to find a boyfriend are the most annoying ones.
I still believe in marriage. I do want to get married someday. Even I dont know when and with who. But me and my mom already agree that we're not going to invite many people on my reception. We think we should keep it simple and intimate. Thats why we'll only invite family and close friends.
Talking about type. Like other girls, I do have my type of guy. I like responsible, smart, good looking, and witty guy. And as my mom said, the most important things when youre looking for a guy are their religion, responsibility, and kindness. Because there are 2 endings in relationship, to be separated and to be married. Thats why we should looking for the best one to spend the rest of our life together.
Dont know why, but I like older guys. I've always had a crush to guys like Marty Natalegawa and Julian Aldrin Pasha. They are smart and good looking, but the most attractive thing for me is that they both looks prestigious. Another crush? Can we count twitter crush as a real crush? Then I had crash with J*seph, F*kri, and Ditt*. Major crush with J*seph. They're witty. They always makes me smile by just reading their tweets. x) But its just a crush.
My mom sometimes says that she'd love to have a bule son in law(I dont really talk about marriage with my dad). Me? I'm okay with both, as long as we love each other and he meet the requirements.
Did I set my standards too high?
*huft*
:/
Fun Time
Me and my close friends loooves karaoke. Its one of our favorite activity besides cooking and hanging out together. It started from our early year in university until now. We dont have certain schedule to do it. But at that time, we do it, a lot.
We sing almost any kind of song, from dangdut, pop, rock, to jazz. English, Indonesian, Korean, to Japanese. And with veiled intention, sometimes we vent through our songs of choice (dont we all?).
Other activity that we loves is cooking. We manage to cook something in one of our place. Mostly my place and Cece's.
We always try to come with different theme every time we cook, like Japanese, Korean, Italian, Chinese, meat night, or sometimes we just mix them up. The girls are always cooks, while the boys watching TV or doing whatever they pleased. Sometimes, one or two of them come to help, but it only last for 15 minutes or so.
Sometimes, we only hanging out . By hanging out, i mean telling each other any story, gossip, vent, or watching TV/movies together.
Where's the fun in that?
Well, for some people it might be boring. But for us, by seeing each other and hanging out like that already give us some fun. At least thats how i feel. :p
We sing almost any kind of song, from dangdut, pop, rock, to jazz. English, Indonesian, Korean, to Japanese. And with veiled intention, sometimes we vent through our songs of choice (dont we all?).
Other activity that we loves is cooking. We manage to cook something in one of our place. Mostly my place and Cece's.
We always try to come with different theme every time we cook, like Japanese, Korean, Italian, Chinese, meat night, or sometimes we just mix them up. The girls are always cooks, while the boys watching TV or doing whatever they pleased. Sometimes, one or two of them come to help, but it only last for 15 minutes or so.
Sometimes, we only hanging out . By hanging out, i mean telling each other any story, gossip, vent, or watching TV/movies together.
Where's the fun in that?
Well, for some people it might be boring. But for us, by seeing each other and hanging out like that already give us some fun. At least thats how i feel. :p
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Bangun Pagi, Sudah Biasa (?)
Pasti ada suatu penjelasan medis kenapa saya selalu merasa kurang tidur.
Mau tidur 6 jam, 7 jam, sampe 8 jam pun, saya masih sering ngantuk kalo udah siangan dikit. Apalagi kalo udah keisi ama makan siang, makin menjadi lah ngantuknya. Bahkan kalo pagi udah terasa ngebosenin and nothing to do, saya udah ngantuk lagi.
Oke, tidur malam saya emang nggak berkualitas. Dengan polip yang saya derita, tiap malam pasti kebangun karena hidung mampet yang ujung-ujungnya gatel dan bersin-bersin. Belum lagi kalo dapet nightmare dan harus nyalain lampu dan nggak bisa tidur lagi saking parnonya. -..-"
Setiap pagi alarm pribadi saya (my parents) pasti selalu "bunyi" duluan dari pada alarm di HP. Karena semenjak saya nggak kuliah senin-jumat (kuliah cuma sabtu) jadi saya bertugas untuk buka kantor usaha fotocopy-print-scan-fax kecil kami. Sedangkan tidur siang buat saya sekarang udah hampir nggak mungkin. Kecuali pas minggu.
Mau minum susu sebelum tidur, kayanya nggak bisa. Kayanya saya alergi susu sapi (hasil tes mengatakan bahwa saya punya banyak alergi, terutama sama makanan, dll, dsb). Ntar niat tidur nyenyak malah jadi kebangun gara-gara hidung mampet dan bersin-bersin. Padahal saya bukan coffee addict lho. Dulu pas jaman masih sekolah sih masih dalam taraf normal, satu gelas per hari. Sekarang saya jarang banget minum kopi. Hampir nggak pernah malah.
There's definitely something wrong with my body system.
Lack of exercise? Might be.
Passive smoker effect? Also might be.
Too many thoughts? Nnnot really.
Too excited for the next day? Nah.
Ugh, i really need to work this out. *yawn*
Mau tidur 6 jam, 7 jam, sampe 8 jam pun, saya masih sering ngantuk kalo udah siangan dikit. Apalagi kalo udah keisi ama makan siang, makin menjadi lah ngantuknya. Bahkan kalo pagi udah terasa ngebosenin and nothing to do, saya udah ngantuk lagi.
Oke, tidur malam saya emang nggak berkualitas. Dengan polip yang saya derita, tiap malam pasti kebangun karena hidung mampet yang ujung-ujungnya gatel dan bersin-bersin. Belum lagi kalo dapet nightmare dan harus nyalain lampu dan nggak bisa tidur lagi saking parnonya. -..-"
Setiap pagi alarm pribadi saya (my parents) pasti selalu "bunyi" duluan dari pada alarm di HP. Karena semenjak saya nggak kuliah senin-jumat (kuliah cuma sabtu) jadi saya bertugas untuk buka kantor usaha fotocopy-print-scan-fax kecil kami. Sedangkan tidur siang buat saya sekarang udah hampir nggak mungkin. Kecuali pas minggu.
Mau minum susu sebelum tidur, kayanya nggak bisa. Kayanya saya alergi susu sapi (hasil tes mengatakan bahwa saya punya banyak alergi, terutama sama makanan, dll, dsb). Ntar niat tidur nyenyak malah jadi kebangun gara-gara hidung mampet dan bersin-bersin. Padahal saya bukan coffee addict lho. Dulu pas jaman masih sekolah sih masih dalam taraf normal, satu gelas per hari. Sekarang saya jarang banget minum kopi. Hampir nggak pernah malah.
There's definitely something wrong with my body system.
Lack of exercise? Might be.
Passive smoker effect? Also might be.
Too many thoughts? Nnnot really.
Too excited for the next day? Nah.
Ugh, i really need to work this out. *yawn*
Monday, May 27, 2013
Empty Twentie(s)
Is it weird that in your 20's you already feels empty?
Numb?
I mean, anything that happens in your life is like, meaningless.
No matter what happen, good things or bad things, after it's already done, then that's it. No impression.
Okay, maybe there was a slight of impression (mostly over bad things), but it only last for a few hours. Or even minutes.
Sometimes I feel empty and lame. I feel like i have no purpose and no excitement in my life.
I'm surely not "that" girl. My social life stinks. But I do have a few close friends that i could talk to about my private life, but since I quit from my old university i feel like there's a gap between us. Or maybe it's just because we're all too busy with our thesis.
If you say that's because i'm not grateful, you're wrong. In fact, i say my gratitude to God every day. I always try to be thankful for what God has gave to me, and I always say thank you to everyone who gave or did something for me.
So what's wrong with me?
Is it because of my lame life? Well, that's obvious.
What should i do?
I'm thinking of breaking my routines, but where should i begin?
I also thinking, maybe it's because i'm single. For too long. Maybe if i have a boyfriend (manfriend) then my life will be colorful.
But we shouldn't depend our happiness to someone else right?
Oh, crap!
What should i do?
:/
Numb?
I mean, anything that happens in your life is like, meaningless.
No matter what happen, good things or bad things, after it's already done, then that's it. No impression.
Okay, maybe there was a slight of impression (mostly over bad things), but it only last for a few hours. Or even minutes.
Sometimes I feel empty and lame. I feel like i have no purpose and no excitement in my life.
I'm surely not "that" girl. My social life stinks. But I do have a few close friends that i could talk to about my private life, but since I quit from my old university i feel like there's a gap between us. Or maybe it's just because we're all too busy with our thesis.
If you say that's because i'm not grateful, you're wrong. In fact, i say my gratitude to God every day. I always try to be thankful for what God has gave to me, and I always say thank you to everyone who gave or did something for me.
So what's wrong with me?
Is it because of my lame life? Well, that's obvious.
What should i do?
I'm thinking of breaking my routines, but where should i begin?
I also thinking, maybe it's because i'm single. For too long. Maybe if i have a boyfriend (manfriend) then my life will be colorful.
But we shouldn't depend our happiness to someone else right?
Oh, crap!
What should i do?
:/
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