Love life

It's too cliche. I'm gonna puke.
I dont know why I'm writing about this topic (but i still write it anyway). It's not like my love life is super exciting or what. It sucks. It's really sucks, you'll be yawning while you reading this sentence.

I'm going to be honest. I only have 1 ex so far, and it wasn't a pleasant relationship. There are a few guys who had a crush on me, dont mean to show off, but I dont have any feeling for them.

Since my first breakup, I find it kind of hard to be close and open to another guy. I begin to be a little bit paranoid about it. I think that's why I'm still single until now. I just had this fear that hard for me to explain. So I begin to be comfortable with my status, with my routines, my family, my friends, and my imaginary relationship with those hot actors (okay, I know!).  

I used to think that having a boyfriend isnt really an important thing to have. Well, sometimes when my friends telling me stories about their crush or boyfriend, I feel that I need one too. The pressure that comes indirectly from my friends and family to find a boyfriend are the most annoying ones.

I still believe in marriage. I do want to get married someday. Even I dont know when and with who. But me and my mom already agree that we're not going to invite many people on my reception. We think we should keep it simple and intimate. Thats why we'll only invite family and close friends.

Talking about type. Like other girls, I do have my type of guy. I like responsible, smart, good looking, and witty guy. And as my mom said, the most important things when youre looking for a guy are their religion, responsibility, and kindness. Because there are 2 endings in relationship, to be separated and to be married. Thats why we should looking for the best one to spend the rest of our life together.

Dont know why, but I like older guys. I've always had a crush to guys like Marty Natalegawa and Julian Aldrin Pasha. They are smart and good looking, but the most attractive thing for me is that they both looks prestigious. Another crush? Can we count twitter crush as a real crush? Then I had crash with J*seph, F*kri, and Ditt*. Major crush with J*seph. They're witty. They always makes me smile by just reading their tweets. x) But its just a crush.


My mom sometimes says that she'd love to have a bule son in law(I dont really talk about marriage with my dad). Me? I'm okay with both, as long as we love each other and he meet the requirements.


Did I set my standards too high?
*huft*
:/